Thank you for checking out my blog. Let me tell you a little bit about how this blog came to be. In April of 2013, my son TJ sustained a severe brain injury at the age of 16, and during the course of his illness, I inadvertently discovered something about myself: I like to write. Through the pages of a Caring Bridge journal that spanned almost five years, writing became an outlet for me, a kind of place where I could pour out my heart about the joys, struggles, and heartaches of living life with a brain injured son; a place where I could be creative; and most importantly, a place where I could point others to the only hope there is in this life, Jesus.
My beloved son passed away February 27, 2018, at the age of 21. Our five-year journey left me trauma filled with a brokenness that I knew would never be repaired until I get to heaven and God makes me whole again. How do I go on? Everyday I am learning. Everyday I am taking small steps toward finding joy in life again and learning to live with this hole in my heart.
At my son’s death, I also had to say goodbye to my steady and constant friend Caring Bridge. I had just lost my child whom I had fought so hard to save, and now I was losing my creative lifeline as well…….until my friend Barb suggested in a Caring Bridge comment that I should start a blog. “A blog?” I thought. “I don’t know anything about blogs. I would like to start a blog, but I don’t know how….. and I’m scared. What if I fail and my heart gets even more broken? I’m not very good with electronics. In fact, I hate electronics. I’m 47 years old, and I don’t want to learn. Isn’t there a saying about that??? You can’t teach an old dog new tricks. No, I don’t think that’s going to work. I don’t think that’s what God wants for me.” So I talked myself out of it and went back to folding laundry, mopping floors, and waiting for God to show me what He wanted me to do with the rest of my life.
When we hit the one-year anniversary mark of TJ’s death, I noticed I had begun getting restless. “What am I going to do with myself? Do I get a job? I really don’t want to get a job. I want to be home in the summers with Aiden, my adopted 9-year-old grandson. I need to make some money but what am I going to do?” I finally began to fervently pray to the Lord about giving me direction on what to do with my life. I brought it up in my Bible study group during prayer requests, and out of the blue my dear friend Beth said, “You should start a blog.”
There was that word again. Blog. B-L-O-G. “I think God is telling me He wants me to start a blog,” I thought. I really wasn’t quite sure what a blog even was. I had been taking care of a sick kid for five years and was completely out of touch with society, so I googled the definition of blog, and it said, “A regularly updated website or web page, typically one run by an individual or small group, that is written in an informal or conversational style.”
“Well, that’s simple enough,” I thought. “Maybe I can do this.” So I enlisted the help of my friend Lynne who also has a blog. She helped me get set up and showed me the ropes, and now I am up and running, at the beginning of another journey. I can’t wait to see what God does……